A God Who Weeps

One of the most powerful things that I have learned in my life is that my Father in Heaven weeps. He cries for us and with us. And, more important to my learning of this, He weeps with ME! I learned this after an evening spent in tears, begging God to fix my body so that I could have a baby. This could have been any trial, any unrealized blessing... I asked my husband for a blessing, hoping to hear that the trial was over and that the blessing was forthcoming. What I received was much different. I was told that God always keeps His promises, and that someday I would be able to look back and understand why I am going through this trial. I knew that meant that God was not going to take it away just yet, but someday He would make it clear why I had to go through it.

During this blessing, I received a prompting that I felt so strongly that I remember it more than what my husband was saying just then. It was this: "God cries with you." Every time that I had cried to God, weeping, begging, pleading, a loving and merciful Father in Heaven was there, listening to me, seeing my pain, and crying with me. He took no pleasure in causing me pain by withholding blessings and prolonging a trial that I had not brought on myself. I believe that this is true of trails we have brought upon ourselves as well. No matter what brought it on, our Father in Heaven does not like watching His beloved children suffer. He is our God, our Father in Heaven, our Abba (a Hebrew term that, in English, would mean roughly the same as Daddy). No matter how far we have strayed, He is still our Father. He still loves and aches for us when we are hurting.

However, He loves me enough to not give it to me just yet. He knows why I must go through this painful journey, and He knows that someday I will be happier, stronger, and better for having gone through it. This trial is a part of His Plan of Salvation for me.

Until the day that God has foreordained this trial to end and the windows of Heaven to open up and pour out the blessings I have asked Him for, God stands with me, crying when I cry. Even though He already knows when the blessing is coming, even though He knows why we must go through it and can see how much stronger and happier we will be because of it in the long run, He still cries with us during the meantime, listening to us, loving us, and supporting and sustaining us.